Tag: ambiguous loss

  • The Sting of Rejection

    The Sting of Rejection

    Rejection from genetic family feels like being the kid nobody wants on the team. Do you remember the dread in PE when you were about to play a team sport and the students, not the teachers, would pick teams? I sure do. I remember the stress of standing on one side of the imaginary line

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  • This Ride is Exhausting

    This Ride is Exhausting

    I was riding high for a couple of weeks. The Atlantic article came out, and in its wake I had doors open for more writing opportunities, podcast interviews, potential collaborations, and more. I was feeling good. Empowered. At peace. I told my therapist I felt as if the grief over my biological father was in

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  • The Pain of Rejection

    The Pain of Rejection

    Share your joys and sorrows with your family. a fortune cookie Some days I just cannot fathom how I will spend the rest of my life cut off by my biological father and his family. Worth nothing more to them than a stranger on the street when I want so badly to have some small

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  • Fear of Abandonment

    Fear of Abandonment

    When you fear the abandonment of another, the probability of you abandoning yourself goes up. Vienna Pharaon This one resonated. When I found my biological father and we connected, I did everything in my power to be perfect. I was sincere in my efforts at bonding with him and his wife, but I did my

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  • Curiosity is Not Dictated by the Reasons for Absence

    Curiosity is Not Dictated by the Reasons for Absence

    You can’t be a sperm donor without also being a biological father. We Are Donor Conceived via Instagram My first father died when I was four. I barely knew him. But would anyone have told me never to wonder about him? That I shouldn’t care to know more? That he was not my father because

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